Things No Parent Wants to Do

Jonathan's birthday is approaching and mine will follow. We were talking about what we want for our birthday the other day. We both want the same thing but don't really want it either. We want to order Grant's headstone. I also want an urn for his ashes. We decided to have Grant cremated. We spread some of his ashes at a beautiful beach and we have some so that we can always have him with us. We are choosing to place a headstone at my grandfather's grave. I want a permanent place for him, a place we can go to. This may not make sense to others, but I don't really care, it is what we want for Grant. We are looking at grave markers. We know what we want, just don't know how to go about to get it done. I've also been looking at urns online. I haven't found one that is just right yet and I want it to be perfect too. No parent wants to pick out these things for their child, and they definitely don't want to say it is what they want for their birthday. However, we want to do this because it is for our son, our beautiful little boy and we want to honor him.