The Mommy and The Pediatrician

I am both of these all the time, however sometimes one side wins over the other. At work I am a Pediatrician first and a Mommy second. Being a Pediatrician first allows me to do my job objectively and being a Mommy second allows me to have a level of empathy and compassion for my patients and their families. At home I am the reverse. I am first a Mommy and second a Pediatrician. I am never able to be just one and I wouldn't want to be. I love both of my roles, equally but differently. At home I love being a Mommy and not thinking too much about my job as a pediatrician. These roles collide a little differently however when my baby is sick. Amelia is only 5 weeks old and has her first illness. She is snotty, coughing, sleeping more than normal and not eating super great. I wish I could do more for her than suction her nose and use a humidifier. I know she doesn't need to go to the doctor, nothing they can do that I'm not already doing. I know if she has a fever we have to go to the ER and she has to have all sorts of tests run to make sure it's just a cold and not something serious. I know what to watch for if she is dehydrated. I KNOW she is ok, just a little cold. My Pediatrician brain tells me this. However, my Mommy brain tells me that my baby is sick and that makes me sad.